Addison Haas

“POOPIN' & CRYIN'”

Early in the morning and I’m heeding natures call, 

In a truck stop south of Phoenix bored with the writing on the wall.

I check my social media and see a video about a dog,

And suddenly tears fill my eyes as I’m pushing out a log.  

I was poopin’ and cryin’,  poopin and cryin’.

Poopin’ and cryin’,  poopin’ and cryin'.

Then I heard a voice in the stall next door to me,

he asked me if I was ok,  I assured him I would be.

He said don't be ashamed ‘cause I’ve been in your shoes,

and those sad YouTube videos give everyone the blues.

And leave us poopin' and cryin',  poopin' and cryin'.

Poopin' and cryin',

there just ain't no denyin',

I both smell and feel like I'm dyin',

Poopin' and cryin',  poopin' and cryin'.

poopin' and cryin',  poopin' and cryin'.

I pulled myself together and went to the truck stop restaurant, 

and i perused the menu to decide just what I'd want.

Habanero deep fried chicken and Jalapeño poppers please,

the waitress took my order and then she tried to warn me.

That I'd be poopin' and cryin',  poopin' and cryin.

Poopin' and cryin',  poopin and cryin'.

Poopin' and cryin',

there just ain't no denyin',

I both smell and feel like I'm dyin',

Poopin' and cryin',  poopin' and cryin'.

poopin' and cryin',  poopin' and cryin'.

“DANCIN' WITH THE DEVIL”

Ol' Rick he lived hard and fast,

tryin' hard to outrun his past, with-

No idea his luck would run out,

 he hopped on his bike and he headed south.

The newspapers said he was a hell of a man,

who saddled up and rode off into the promised land.

When you cruise the open road at a hundred and three, 

wide open like the life you lead,

Payin' no mind to the dangers that lie ahead.

A deer in the road or a patch of ice,

one false move might take your life,

and life's too short to dance with the devil.

And life's too doggone short when you're dancin' with the devil.

Sally Lynn went out every night,

her tears were dimmed by the neon lights, ‘n’ she was-

Always chasin' that “higher high”,

she could outdrink nearly every guy.

They found her in her home lyin' on her bed,

with a bottle in her hand and a hole in her head.

So drink another drink smoke another smoke,

roll a joint and take another toke,

but keep in mind these things are a waste of life.

And if you wanna live to be all you can be,

the clock is ticking fast you better listen to me,

‘cause life’s to short to dance with the devil.

And life's too doggone short when you're dancin' with the devil.

Hey! Hey!  The devil wants to dance 'till the clock runs out,

but livin' long and love is what it's all about,

and life's to short to dance with the devil,

and life's too doggone short when you're dancin' with the devil,

life's too doggone short,  dancin' with the devil.

“THE MACHINE”

I was sixteen when I left home with a guitar on my back,

a head full of dreams I headed west along a lonely railroad track.

When i got to LA it was nothin' like what I thought it would be,

I was chewed up and then spit out by the music machine.

That machine,

is big and mean, it can crush your soul and steal away your dreams.

And that devastation,  

to your inspiration, can put a cloud on all that you could ever be.

When i got home I settled down to a job in a factory,

by the time i paid the bills that I owed there was nothing left for me.

Workin' my fingers to the bone everyday was my routine,

linin' the pockets of the wealthy man in the corporate machine.

That machine,

is big and mean, it can crush your soul and steal away your dreams.

And that devastation,  

to your inspiration, can put a cloud on all that you could ever be.

Now I'm too old to rock and roll and my body's past it's prime,

but i still dream of “what could have been” if I had only had the time.

So I'm telling you what I wish I'd known when i was just a teen,

the clock on the wall counting seconds down is the worst of all machines.

That machine,

is big and mean, it can crush your soul and steal away your dreams.

And that devastation,  

to your inspiration, can put a cloud on all that you could ever be.

That machine,

is big and mean, it can crush your soul and steal away your dreams.

And that devastation,  

to your inspiration, can put a cloud on all that you could ever be.

“TIME ON THE OUTSIDE”

Working my life away in the land of the free,

but I am still a slave to this big old company.

Haven't seen my wife in I think it's seven days,

how about that kid of mine I hope he's getting passing grades.

‘Cause I’m doin' time on the outside,

my body's numb and I feel a part of me has died.

I'm doin' time on the outside,

Think I'm in control but I'm just goin' along for the ride.

I really miss my family I hope to see 'em again one day,

I don't like this life on the road but it's the only thing that pays.

Gotta make a livin' and it's the only thing I know,

so until I can retire my life is go go go go!

‘Cause I’m doin' time on the outside,

my body's numb and I feel a part of me has died.

I'm doin' time on the outside,

Think I'm in control but I'm just goin' along for the ride.

And I never wanted to hurt anyone,

since I've been in the system that's all that I have done.

And I pray for my family who has left me far behind,

I hope that check I send to you gives you some peace of mind.

‘Cause I’m doin' time on the outside,

my body's numb and I feel a part of me has died.

I'm doin' time on the outside,

Think I'm in control but I'm just goin' along for the ride.

“WAITING TO DIE”

Standing outside of myself I see what you've seen all along,

an edited version I've created to appear as though I belong.

But this is not the real me,

the real me's scared and all alone.

In all the emptiness within,

where's the me I used to know?

No matter what I do,

no matter how hard i try,

I'll never drown in the tears I've cried.

So I guess I must move on,

I'm not ready to say goodbye,

I won't waste my time waiting to die.

In fear I'd be misunderstood I seldom stepped out of my lie,

I became what all expected a bird without the urge to fly.

And even though I tried to fight it,

the urge to fit was way too strong.

I became someone that I hated,

I was the one who just went along.

No matter what I do,

no matter how hard i try,

I'll never drown in the tears I've cried.

So I guess I must move on,

I'm not ready to say goodbye,

I won't waste my time waiting to die.

I need to find myself again be the guy I used to know,

the one i once respected one that could let his worries go.

But this is not the real me,

the real me's scared and all alone.

In all the emptiness within,

where's the me I used to know?

No matter what I do,

no matter how hard i try,

I'll never drown in the tears I've cried.

So I guess I must move on,

I'm not ready to say goodbye,

I won't waste my time waiting to die.

“I WANNA BE YOUR STALKER”

Some men give you flowers and others give you wine.

But I don't need to give you anything to know that you are mine.

I'm hiding in the shadows at night when you come home.

I watch you when you're sleeping though you think that you're alone.  

But you're not -

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna know you like no one has ever known you before.

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna be around when you forget to lock your front door.

I go through your garbage and keep the things i find,

I take them to my hiding place and add them to my shrine.

I know every detail of everything you do,

and oh how it kills me that you haven't got a clue.

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna know you like no one has ever known you before.

I wanna be your stalker,

I'd go in your house if you were gone for an hour or more.

I'm writing you a letter I'll send toy you one day,

to let you know just how I feel to be with you to stay.

When you get my letter try not to make a scene,

it took me forever to cut and paste from magazines.

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna know you like no one has ever known you before.

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna sniff the pair of panties that I know you just wore.

I know it freaks you out when I call you at home,

I'd probably even talk to you if I had a hands free telephone.

But that restraining order separates us by one block,

it's hard to hold my binoculars and also check for cops.

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna know you like no one has ever known you before.

I wanna be your stalker,

I wanna be the creepy lover that you just can't ignore.

“TO MISS YOU”

Sometimes I wonder when I look up to the sky,

do you see the tears falling from my eyes.

At times I wonder if you know it's killing me,

that my friend for life was gone so suddenly.

And I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you,

and I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you.

I try to move along and live another day,

but the memories always get in the way.

You were the only one that knew me like I do,

but without the bad that's what I loved about you.

And I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you,

and I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you.

My voice of reason that guided me along,

you always had my back even times when I was wrong.

where are you now my friend when I'm in my time of need,

I could sure use advice ‘cause yours I'd always heed.

And I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you,

and I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you.

And when I think of how I took you for granted,

 as so many often do.

I wish i could tell you how sorry I am,

that I wasn't a better friend to you.

I play your old guitar it's like you're by my side,

but it's not the same a fact I cannot hide.

You used to help me so to find the perfect words,

but without you here it just seems so absurd.

And I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you,

and I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you.

And I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you,

and I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you.

And I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you,

and I wonder if you know what it's like to miss you.

“SAFE WITHIN MY HEART”

Like a reel of old time movies playin' in my head,

I see you curled up safe and warm on your favorite bed.

And the way you would look up at me as I played around with a melody,

I wouldn't give it up for all the world.

‘But if I could trade this heart that’s full of pain,

for a life where I'd never known you there's nothin' I would change.

I'll keep you here we'll never be apart,

you'll live on in my memories,

safe within my heart.

All the years you lived were showin' in your eyes,

and I knew the day was soon to come for me to say goodbye.

'Cause your days of chasing rabbits came and passed you by,

I had to let you go my baby girl.

‘But if I could trade this heart that’s full of pain,

for a life where I'd never known you there's nothin' I would change.

I'll keep you here we'll never be apart,

you'll live on in my memories,

safe within my heart.

Letting go ain't easy,

it's the hardest thing to do.

I'll hold on to the memories,

of all my years with you.

‘And if I could trade this heart that’s full of pain,

for a life where I'd never known you there's nothin' I would change.

I'll keep you here we'll never be apart,

you'll live on in my memories,

safe within my heart.

“YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME”

I don't want to let you go,

I just want to keep you here,

and try my best to mend your broken soul.

You were always there for me,

don't feel it's too much to ask,

for a friend to help you through it all.

You mean the world to me,

so much more to life much more than you can see.

And any time you feel it's more than you can stand,

you mean the world to me.

I wish that I could ease your pain,

that I could help you smile again,

and not the smile you put on just for show.

I wish that you would let me in,

to try to make you whole again,

and be the light to guide you through the dark.

You mean the world to me,

so much more to life much more than you can see.

And any time you feel it's more than you can stand,

you mean the world to me.

And far too many times we've struggled helplessly,

tossed and turned around through life's insanity.

Accepting we deserve help is easier said than done,

but once we do we might find the battle is half won.

You mean the world to me,

so much more to life much more than you can see.

And any time you feel it's more than you can stand,

you mean the world to me.